Why create a blog?

I felt that i can no longer store whatever i have think about

used to reason a lot in my mind,
always have ideas of changing for the good
but they(the conclusions) don't seen to come to past(not to mention to even being applied)

I find that the only way for me to get things done is to actually confess them.
(as i am typing, i am also forgetting what i had thought of while traveling home.)

What is my best??
Will never know until i take a step of faith to try,
Then again, just taking a step of faith is enough to show my best capability?

I don't think with that alone works for me,
I need to confess, telling others my plan.

And that's not all,
like what JiaYi(my Cell Group Leader) said before,
"If you didn't do to what you have confessed, next time don't bother carrying weight in your words anymore."(roughly like that)

Meaning that if you were to give empty promises, next time don't bother giving promises anymore, cause chances are that people will not trust in what you say.
(just in case the way i try to recall and phrase out doesn't make sense.)

True enough, who is going to believe you if you kept giving empty promises and confessions.

Confessing pushes me to my maximum limit, happened before, can happen again.
In fact, it's killing two birds with one stone:
Bird one: Pushed to the maximum potential
Bird two: Earning Trust.

Come to think about it, it actually reinforces the power of confession.
Not only have God's Word to back you up about also
but also in Layman terms

After all, pastor did say before about taking risk.
Having the risk that you might fail to reach the expected standard that you have announced to the world, makes you go all out to make it come to past.

1st Confession:
I want to reorganize my Life!


2nd Confession:
I shall be hush to myself from now onwards.

Why??
Heard that a discipleship is a very straight forward teaching.
Where you will be corrected, taught and learn in a "hard way".
The Teacher is going to be very straight forward with you.
(He/She has the right cause he/she is capable.)
But here's the catch, it will not bring condemnation but instead it makes you want to go further, do better, and even determine to change for the good).

The mind thinks one way while my flesh does the another.

should not only have a reasoning mind but also a Disciplining mind
Reasoning mind + Disciplining mind = Discipline Mind and Flesh.

I have this "excuse" which i will use in my studies.

"I can do it de, just that I don't want nia. If i chiong, sure can excel like Siao."

Walao, now i realized this Shit excuse is made for me to be lazy.
It shows a very high level of no purpose, no vision.

It's either you start changing or you perish.

God place things in your life for reasons.

Jiayi says:"If I am not working, I sure spend the time to meet up members."
And "If i stop booking seat for her on the three month, the day she open up to me will never come."
(something like that, way i phrase might be wrong, not a direct quote)

Wa, I have a whole Friday， no classes at all
plus a Thursday which is half day.
All this "spare time", I bet God don't place them for this reasons:

To rush project?
(You are slacking on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday, it's all about doing effective work)

Slack?( Wow, Rubbish!)

No Way!
I told myself.
Not all this reasons.

Shit, why did I kept on saying:" just that I don't want nia, slowly do la, so many days. If i chiong, sure can finish fast."

A vision less "excuse", wasting my time away.

3rd Confession:
To totally free my second half of Thursday and whole of Friday to meet friends.

Seriously, I don't feel happy about what i am doing now.
Not meeting people out often enough.

I rather have a quiet meal than not even meeting up at all.
at least able to felt each other presence, existence.

Cell group is like a hello-bye session if without frequent meet-up on any other days,
OK, currently, my mind is flashing all my cell group mates.

Was once asked before, "Hey, if one day the cell group were to be dismissed, and all members were to no longer be able to meet for cell group and services, will you still meet them?"

The answer I have in mind was "well maybe some..."
Wow! What do you mean by some?!

God,
I don't want to be just church friends with them,
I want to take it to the next level.
To be Life-Time Friends.
I want situations where I can add colors to my own life as well as other people's lives.

As i was typing,
I realized that it is also happening in school,
other than schooling, I hardly meet my classmates on any other days.

That Sucks.

I don't want it to be this way.
I want a change,
I want a whole new way of Life.

4th Confession:
I want more Life-Time Friends, I am going to have Life-Time Friends with the help of 3rd Confession.


"Let's just set our Lives Right before God..."

The power of changing my Life is totally in my hands.
Let's just get stricter and place high standards towards the way of Life.

Once confessed, I shall make them come to past!
Once confessed, I shall make them come to past!
Once confessed, I shall make them come to past!

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